Recently, a friend expressed some concern over my automatic writing practice.  She was curious as to where the messages and words that I had written were coming from.  Was it coming from within myself or was a spirit or spirits directing the chosen words to me?  I could hear a concern and hesitation in her voice and wanted to put her at ease regarding any fears or concerns she may have, and so decided to reconstruct part of my website.  My hope is that by conveying a little more about myself, that I will be alleviating some fears and any apprehension that in the past may have been generated by an unknowing audience.
    Automatic writing when done properly is an avenue by which your "authentic or true" self can come through.  Messages from your "Higher" self can then be gained and in the process profound insights can be given, because you are channeling the Divine in you.
    When I was young, I was always a very sensitive child, almost to the point of having that sensitivity be a detriment.  As an adult I have realized over time, that my sensitivity was part of my empathic, intuitive self making itself known to me.  Everyone is intuitive and clairvoyant, or psychic to a point.  Everyone has different gifts and talents to impart out onto the world.  My clairvoyant sensitivity is more of a feeling based intuition.
    In 1998, while sitting in our living room with my young daughter on my lap, I noticed that my chest felt a little funny with a sensation that air was being pumped into my lungs, causing a feeling of expansion.  My heart began to race and I closed my eyes.  When I did this, I saw the color pink on the inside of my eyelids.  I tried to remain calm because of my daughter sitting on my lap - I didn't want to alarm her, but at the same time, I was concerned because I wasn't sure what was going on within me.  Within a few minutes, I felt normal again; both the expansion sensation in my lungs, and the racing of my heart stopped.  However, within a minute or two, the same sensations started all over again.  These sensations lasted for about an hour.  A few days later, the same chest sensations started again around the same time, and in the same location where I had previously been sitting.  Within time, these sensations were a daily experience, happening at random times and places. 
    By 2001, the pink on the inside of my eyelids gave way to visions of moving pictures.  These visions that I started to experience seemed to be mostly religious in nature.  I sought out professional help from a psychotherapist but was greatly disappointed after forty minutes when he asked me if I thought I was better than everyone else.  I said no and was quite confused by his response.  I then began to realize that maybe no one would be able to help me understand what was going on within me, and left his office very discouraged.
    By March of 2004, my oldest son, had become very well-read in metaphysical books, and talked me into going to a metaphysical bookshop.  At that time, going into a metaphysical bookstore would not of been my first choice.  I had always thought anything "metaphysical" was the work of the "devil" because of my "Christian" upbringing.  When I went into the bookshop - I thought I would pass out, but the warmth and sincerity of everyone involved in this store allowed me to embrace my spirituality that on a conscious level had been trying to make itself known to me.
    Over time, I began to realize that the chest expansions that I had been experiencing since 1998, was just my body's way of starting its own meditation practice.  I finally started to understand what was going on within me, and my visions, among other things, were explained to me for the first time.  I began to realize that my sensitivity as a child had transitioned me into becoming an empathic adult.  Childhood insights that were denied or given no credence, at that time, was simply my intuition making itself known to me.  Soon everything began to make sense, making me more comfortable and less anxious.  I finally started to have an understanding of my true nature, my "authentic" self that was beginning to make itself known by my conscious, waking "present" self.  I soon started to take classes at the bookshop, meeting many people who wanted answers just like me; answers to questions that are never asked or talked about in regards to a person's spiritual awakening and matters of the heart, and in the process, I made some life-long friends.
    Shortly after finding the bookshop in 2004, a spirit woke me up in the middle of the night.  This spirit, who appeared to me as an apparition in the form of a very short woman with long, whitish-blonde hair and a white flowing nightgown, told me that my family and I would need to move.  Nothing more was said and she left.  During a afternoon meditation session, in my home, I asked out loud, "Where should we move?"   I then closed my eyes and instantly I had a vision of a house on the inside of my eyelids.  It lasted only so many seconds and then faded out.  With my family in tow, I searched the surrounding area, but no house could be found.  During my daily meditations and prayer work, I would ask for some insight into a possible location for this house but no clues were forth coming.  
    A few weeks later,  my husband was looking at some real estate listings on the internet. He asked me to take a look at them, and I did look at a couple, but I reminded him that we had looked in this area a year earlier and that the weather there was just too hot.  A couple  weeks later, while vacuuming, I accidentally knocked over these listings, spilling them onto the floor.  There on one of the pages was the house I had seen in my vision, and we soon found ourselves driving to this location.   
     As we started to look around the property we realized that this was where we needed to be.  Moving was a lot to consider at that time because my husband would not be moving with us for at least eighteen months, but would be visiting us on the weekends, or when he could.  With family and friends living two to three hours away, it would be quite a sacrifice, but there was just something about this house.  
    Within a couple of weeks of moving into this home, I awoke in the middle of the night to a vision of an orange mechanical pencil with white, feathered-wings attached to it.  That afternoon while taking a drive with my husband,  he suggested that maybe automatic writing was being presented to me; at that time I knew nothing about automatic writing.
    On July 16, 2006, I awoke to the sound of a bell ringing and through telepathy was given a poem to write.  Two weeks later, on August 5, 2006, in the early morning hours, I awoke again to a bell ringing and through telepathy was given a message that was much longer in length.  This time I wrote for fifty minutes.  I soon started to write before going to bed, by stilling my mind and listening for the words to write.
    Shortly after I had the vision of the orange mechanical pencil, I started to research the internet for a website or book on automatic writing.  I was unable to find very much information on this subject and some of the information I did find insisted that a person should not try it.  I found that somewhat confusing because of the way in which automatic writing had been presented to me.  I felt that it had been brought to me as a Divine gift.  That many of the experiences that God and the Universe as a whole, in the last decade, had allowed me and sometimes forced me to see, and experience, had given me a clearer understanding of all the possiblities a person has in their life, even when their life might seem so limited.   Now looking on the internet, much more information can be found regarding this subject; both positive and negative, but an important void is being filled.  As with anything in life, a common-sense approach is always needed in regards to most anything and you will need to decide if this is something you want to pursue.
    My hope is that this website will start you on your own journey of self-discovery and self-healing.  I have learned over time that people may not understand the visions or dreams that I have, and a friend even shared with me that the thought of me having visions scared her because I wasn't an ordained minister.  Through her comment, I came to realize that some people might think that prophetic visions can only happen to ministers or clergy, and that if anyone else has one, it must be because of a demonic presence or possession.  I can assure you, in my own experience, this is not the case.
    In the future I will be publishing a book on my automatic writings, including some of my poems and historical stories that I have written through this process; there may even be a song or two. 
    This website will hopefully start you on your own journey of self-discovery, and very blessed will you be, for true harmony exists inside your heart.  Much love to you.  K


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